Saturday, January 30, 2010

i have always complained to god about how imperefect he made me....no body in the world perhaps had as many defects as i had! there wasn't a single field of interest or work in which i could command my excellence.no that doesn't mean i was 'jack of all trades, master of none'. Infact i wasn't even worth a jack in any single field. I was ok at singing,below average at drawing, above average in dancing but too shy to exhibit my dancing skills in front of people, average at writing, BAD at painting, miserable in craft. Still i took proud in being myself considering i was good at studying, till i actually realised i was not so good after all. i messed up final year at school and there i was left behind my peers in the big bad competitive world of education. my bad interpersonal skills left me labelled as stuck up and snobbish in my extended family much to the dismay of my mum. i was born with a deep stage fear and was hesitant to mingle with lot of people.

but that was not about it. there was more. i was always regarded as one of the prettiest in class. but alas all that went down the drain as i collected huge amount of flab at all places and became miserably fat. the tension resulted in thinning of my hair, and i already had bad gums n teeth thanks to my genes. soon enough i got bespectacled too..........and shockingly i still looked cute thanks to my chubby cheeks and glowing skin. may be thats why i felt so low when my cute face was attacked by pimples. still i thought i was reasonably presentable and since,evidentally, everyone has hidden skills i would be having them too...all i had to do was search for it. but after 2 and a half years i realise that all i am good at is sleeping and watching tv. i felt like a loser and wanted to complain.

but now as i think about it...it wasn't so bad after all. I am still happy, still smiling, my family loves me......and inspite of being a useless person...i am still leading a good life.
So i guess i actually had a lot more things to thank about.......

Happy life
swecha!

1 comment:

  1. hey dear
    u knw wat today only i realise that i'm not alone like this...so u also will realise after seeing my comment,,butt diff,in b/w us is..u can write n express urself in words but i can't even do that..god bless!!

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